Counterfeit Faith by Crystal Caudill
Author:Crystal Caudill
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Kregel Publications
Published: 2023-10-15T00:00:00+00:00
CHAPTER 21
JOSIAHâS HEAD JERKED FORWARD AS the carriage rumbled over the train tracks, startling him awake. He rubbed his eyes and surveyed the passing businesses and above-stairs homes. By the sulfuric smell of the gas works, he was still blocks away from reaching Final Chance.
Exhaustion and worry over Gwendolyn had dampened his ability to focus all throughout the morningâs blur of activity and information. Heâd slept with his window open and his ears attuned for the moment Speedy would pound on his door to announce some calamity had befallen her. Though the pounding never came, he awoke at every sound in the night. If only heâd gotten the chance to speak to her before sheâd left with Mrs. Flowers. Then he mightâve been able to provide her a weapon of some sort. Something to ease his mind over the danger she faced.
âDonât you be taking the Lordâs job, Josiah. Itâs His to do the protectinâ, yours to do the trustinâ.â Shaunaâs voice rolled through his head, and he could almost feel the tap to the nose sheâd always done to emphasize her admonitions.
But Josiah had done his job. It was God whoâd failed. God hadnât protected Shauna from the train accident, and now Josiah wasnât sure he could trust Gwendolyn to Godâs protection either.
âItâs Him who numbers our days, and thereâs naught you can do about it.â
He ran a hand over his face and stared out the window. He hadnât given God this much consideration since Shauna died, and now he vacillated between praying to Him and being angry all over again. Although he supposed heâd never really stopped being angry, and that anger was the true crutch of his doubt. Gwendolynâs words rose to mind next, and it was as if the two women in his life that had an unnatural way of worming into his heart had joined together to beat Him with their Bibles.
âDoubt is the struggle to believe Godâs promises when confronted with the darkness of this world. Itâs the wavering between accepting God and His unsearchable ways or believing what our limited experiences might tell us.â
Josiah bit the inside of his cheek. What was it about Gwendolyn and Shauna that drove him to God even when he didnât want to go?
God, both women seem to think You worthy of their love and devotion, but I confess Iâm angry. Angry, hurt, and resentful that You did not intervene to save Shauna. You could have, but You didnât. And now Gwendolyn faces a different danger. Are You going to act this time? You say You are good. You say You are just. But I canât see it. Gwendolyn says to bring my doubts to You and ask for Your help to confront them. Well, here they are. I donât want to be angry anymore. I want to know I can trust You, but Youâre going to have to help me. Iâm not sure I have enough faith left to be able to believe on my own.
The carriage
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